Shavings and Ravings of a not so sane mind

yeh well

2010-08-18T21:43:00.004+08:00

Okay so at the moment i am sitting here skyping with Jana, trying with all my heart not to break down and cry, like a broken hearted child, because the one thing i dont want to do is put this onto my Jana, my beloved.
I live in Fear, my life is filled with it. I am in an impossible situation.
I have no answers, i don't think anybody does.
I have no help because there is no way to help, no one that can help.
My life is a prison that only death can free me of, but i dont wish for it, i have to much to live for, so much left undone, so much life left in me and Her.
But when life becomes unbearable what can one do? strive and get through it? give up?
I used to think i knew what i had to do but now im not so sure.
Its hard enough being apart from Jana, but then when i get abused for no good reason other than the fact that he is in a bad mood and looking for a fight, what can i do?
I dont want to be here anymore, i dont like this place i find myself in, phsically and mentally.
But i cant escape, where can i go? and i cant leave Mother to deal with it.....
It is for her that I am still here, why i take the abuse, the emotional blackmail and the petty bullying.
I can't do this much longer i need to get out of here or i fear that soon, i will lose control of myself.
I can feel my mind slipping, thoughts intruding upon my peaceful mind like wildfire, all saying the same thing 'Kill Him, Kill Him'.
It is a solution of a sort, but not one im willing to apply. not yet,
and this is my worst fear.

Been awhile.......

2006-03-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

Well well well it has been awhile since i have had the time
or mind to update this even in the slightest.
i Give it up to A) being so depressed and jobless and B) being
constantly high whenever possible... yes yes i knoww its my choice and
i can change it but u havent heard the whole story yet....
put it this was i spent the last yr studying and got my
Cert 1 and 2 in conservation and land management and
was meant to be starting my cert 3 jan this yr...well as you can tell
things didnt go my way... here-in lies the problem
i cant get a job in my preferred industy with my two certs...
they aint enough.....i mean its not like im not applying for
other jobs...im on centrelink so i gotta do 10 a fortnight.
but even gettin a normal shitty job is getting harder..
they want this license and that license that ive never even heard of..
neway i just wanted to update this page with something....
been that long i can even remember how to put a photo on here...
ohh well when i got something more interesting to say ill say it here

Gondwana Link - Aus South West

2006-02-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

Well now as you have probably already guessed i love WA's
Natural south west.....
so ima just gonna let ya know that there is currently and ,
probably will be for awhile ,
a BIG BEAUTIFUL CONSERVATION EFFORT.....VISION
THE GONDWANA LINK
if you love you natural south west as much as i do
go check out this site
www.gondwanalink.org
is wikkid and explains it all
peace out

Albany

2006-02-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

well yesterday i applied for a job in Albany....for those of you that dont know
its in Western Australias South West and is apperantly
very very beautiful..i wouldnt know ive never been there
but i do hope to got there soon...
you see last year i done some courses and got my
Cert 1 and 2 in Conservation and Land Management......I LOVE NATURE!
so i applied for a tree planting job......planting trees..........der?
well im hopin to get it....is so fuckin hard for someone
like me to get a job in my desired industry.......
THERE ARE NO FUCKIN JOBS IN IT!!!!!!!!!
neway if i get the job ill put it in here cos if i do i wont be here
to do this for 5 weeks!
so fuck you!
peace
Nat

some serious enviro-talk

2006-02-02T10:20:00.000+08:00

pic above from www.wilderness.org (american Wilderness society)

See that sayin up there??????well do ya
if ya cant read it it says.....and i quote

' We have not inherited the world from our forefathers -
we have borrowed it from our children"
Kashmiri, proverb

well that saying right there i heard long ago from a very very good friend
and have since hearing it, lived my life by that proverb up there
and it works....it really does strengthen the way of thinkin about nature...
ive heard another sayin but i cant quite remember it at the moment
but i will continue with the train of thought anon..

okay well at the moment im reading about the Wild Rivers campaign in Queens land
and i think that Queensland is one of the foremost states in realizing the conservation
needs of Australia. With premier Beattie already doing, well not enough but atleast something.
NOw the first group of six rivers have been nominated and need the publics support
otherwise they wont be approved so cmon get off ya ass and goto THE WILDERNESS
SOCIETY site and send the premier of Queensland an email so these loverly rivers
can be deemed 'Wild Rivers' and be forever there.
so yeh what do u think of that?? you fuckin world wasters!!!!

i have also jus read about premier beatties decsion with the "Freehold forestry code"
and i think it is total bullshit!!!utter bullshit forget what i about queensland baing on
the forefront of the needed conservation in australia,, fuck you Beattie!
what a stupid decision to put 10 million i repeat 10 fuckin million HECTARES!!!
up for grabs!!! and this really pisses me off if you cant notice!!!!
what a step back for the australian government...
i mean 350 000 hectares of the 10 million stated earlier is RAINFOREST!!!!
QUENNSLAND RAINFOREST!!!!!!CMON AUSTRALIA YOU LOVE THIS COUNTRY
DONT YA THEN SHOW SOME SUPPORT FOR THIS COUNTRIES ENVIRONMENT!!!
get onto THE WILDERNESS SOCIETYS PAGE AND SEND BEATTIE AND EMAIL
the link is over there -=>
again i tell you support the wilderness society because they WILL save what beauty is left
but they need public support....YOUR support.
now i know this must all seem a bit repetative but it needs to be said
over and over again..its something i learnt from TWS it takes a peson 3
interactions with someone from tws before they take any action
thus why i keep repeating shit..so deal!
hey heres a bit of a emotional pic.... i hope it affects you asmuch as it does me

pic above from www.wilderness.org.au (Austrtalian wilderness society)

Now im gonna hit a little closer to home with some Western Australian environmental issues.........i love this state and you should too!!! we have 5 out of 8 bio-diversity hot spots in Australia. if you dont know the meaning of bio-diversity....in a nutshell its just a variety of life containing plant life, animal life and so on but its also where these different life forms thrive within one another and live in peace and harmony:) lol but its tru

well i think all west aussie should love and in some part put effort into keeping our envirnonment as pristine and beautiful as it is now....do me a favour and read that prverb up the top again....now think...........do you understand it?? well think until you do...but for me this mean that i need to do what i can to preserve our nature here in aus so that future generations will be able to enjoy what we have taken for granted and raped and pillaged almost til destruction. but hey here i come to save the day...that aint gonna work if we wanna save our natural environment.........we need to work together

well to the north near NINGALOO REEF and im sure most or you remember that, there is a campaign for the Dampier Archipeligo because it is more life rich than ningaloo reef with mangroves, island and coral reefs that are home to humbacks, endangered dugongs, sea turtles, colourfull coral garden and numerous sea bed sponges.

there is one of Dampier 42 islands that is of most importance in the entire indian ocean beacause of the endangered HAWKSBILL TURTLE...this island is also so refueling stop for migratory birds coming from south east asia and is also a sancturay for Dugongs that feed on the sea grass in the shallow water.....here are some more pics from the Wilderness societies site

I will say now that all the information no this post has come from the wilderness societywedsite and i give them all credit...

but to put it plainly the DAMPIER ARCHIPELIGO is in danger or destruciotn the way I see it so we need to band together as a community and save this loverly place so go onto the site and send GEOFF GALLOP a email to let him know how u feel.....

again dont take what I personally say here as words of THE WILDRENESS SOCIETY at all the information is theres but the words and opions r my own.....

so dont in any way relate them to the wilderness societys views or opions as a whole

i am totally outside the Wilderness society acting by meyself and would really like some other people witht the same views to post on this blog with me...so if your interested and passionate about our natural environment..post a comment and express your interest

anyway this has been another shaving and raving from a not so sane mind...

peace out

Nat(archy)

help Nature return to her former beauty by caring about litter and pollution and whether or not what you do affects the environment.........Me

again thanks to The Wilderness Society(USA and AUS) for the information and photos that will help to draw emotion from the people that read this

Doctor Doctor!!!!!!(Spanish accent)

2006-01-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

well how bout this.....-=>:Þ
hehehehe
na fuckin yesterday i went to the doctors,
my app was at 12:50pm and there in the
waiting room was an old friend of mine....
Jen thing is is that her app was at
11:20am that same day......and yet she was still
waiting........
so yeh there i am with this growth in my left cheek
jus tryin to get some antibiotics for my new found
friend........but it took roughly 1 hr before i even went in to
the DOCTOR!!!!!!! and then i had to wait another 20mins
while he went and sucked some cock or something
but yeh when he came in i was like
" this growth" pointing at my left cheek
" i want some antibiotics for it" - ME
and he was all like ' ohh does it hurt??'(indian accent, cos hes indian)
" only when i eat, look i can see your busy just gimme the
prescription and ill get out of here...." - Me
'ohh let me se where it comes from' the DOCTOR said pullin out his
lighting tool thingy (???) and one of those giant popstickles..hehe
popstickles......:)
anyway
" i know it comes from my left bottow wisdom tooth...." -Me
"i just wanna get some stuff to make it go away..."-Me
but he proceded to look into my mouth with his tool and, wood.....
...................LOL...................(you sick person you!!!!not those tools and wood)
then hes re-emerges with a look on his face like that of someone
whose just blown their load for the first time in 20 years...... and
he looks at me and says ' I think its your bottom left wisdom tooth'

"YAH THINK???" says I, Infuriated that i was violated for no reason........
' here ' says he giving me a prescription slip
' this is for some antibiotics that will help it go away(my growth)'
"THANKS............alot..............really....." i said as i left the room
with my prescription slip in hand and a pad inmy pocket :)
and all i could think was ' i jus wasted 3 hrs of my sunday for this???'
but hey it killed time and gave me a laugh.....
DOCTOR DOCTOR!!!!
peace
Nat(archy)

My plea for sanity

2006-01-24T13:32:00.000+08:00

okay loyal fan and readers alike...(yeh i know im kiddin my self but meh?)
here comes some more of natarchys hippie shavings and ravings...........
so get ready......

i often find myself thinkin 'do the people of this loverly state realise
that there arent places like this everywhere...?'
i mean W.a has 5 out of 8 bio-diversity hot spots in australia
do you think that this is common knowlage??
well i spent a year and a half puttin this message aswell
as others out into the public...
well what im gettin at is i love this state and im not the only one i know
so why cant there be more effort? why not fight for something
that is so beautiful and unique...
im sittin here pondering what to write but this isnt something
i can do with thinkin i have to feel it.......from my spirit/soul
or whatever you term may be.
can you imagine a world without nature?? Try go on...
Imagine the world with nature, a barren wasteland
because human kind raped every natural resource;
tree and oil alike;
no water because that too is gone through our ignorance....
No living thing beyond the giant bubbles weve built so we
can sustain some amount of living. farming and tilling land
inside these bubbles but never able to venture out...
i mean youve probably seen movies with this scene in it
so think 'what if it really happened?' for a second.....
is that any kind of life you want any family of yours to have?
but in my own opinion the planet wouldnt last that long...
she would throw more natural disasters at us then we can imagine
because we, arent ruler ovr this planet, Gaia-Mother Nature,
she gave all life and she can fuckin take it away too if she likes.
weve seen examples of this, i call the recent waves of natural
disasters examples because Gaia has more power than that.
again you have probably seen movies dipicting massive
natural disasters because i know i have....
do we really wnat any of these to happen??????
you may see your local environmental groups in the city or at your local
shops.... and you may think 'FUCKIN HIPPIES FUCK OFF WITH YOUR
NATURE CRAP' i used to, then i became one :) beware conversion is at hand!
but thing is we are a part of Nature aswell and therefore have a duty to her.
these people you see and think the above about are tryin to save
Gaia because she gives us all life, it may seem an impossible task
but hey doesnt they saying go 'Many hands make light work' ?
the more people that get behind these local environmental groups
or any environmental group for that matter the more chance we
have of stopping mass disasters from happening in the future...
when maybe your children or there children will be alive
and living in a world we fucked up....or they could be living in
a world we worked together to save that is still alive
and flourshing with life....

so think on all i have said here today.......
i told you it was gonna be some more of my hippie shit
so
peace out
Nat(archy)

2006-01-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

why is it that so many children grow up without Mothers or Fathers
and im one of them.....
my dad died when i was 11 on novemeber 1st......
he had a tumor on his brain stem, but that wasent the cause..
he actually went into hospital and had half of it cut out.... then
was released for a week......
well beause of the type of surgery he had he was bed ridden.....
well anway i think it was about 3-4 days he had been home for,
only a few days left til he went back into hospital to get the other half removed.
there i was 11 years old playin happily and yay dad was home!!!!!!
when all of a sudden i hear " I CANT BREATHE, KAREN(my mum)!!"
comin from my dad........those were they last words i heard him say.
i was put in a room as the ambo tooks my dad to the ambulance, then taken to my uncles house to wait...... about an hour later i find out my dad is dead...
the one person who inspired me more than anything else in the world could....gone...forever......with his last words trailing forever i my mind
"I CANT BREATHE, I CANT BREATHE"

I found out that beacuse he was bed ridden the blood clots from his
legs moved upto his lungs and effectivly choked him to death..............
Fuck i miss him......
I just got something to say to those who still have there parents, wether they be close or astranged, make the most of it because you never
know when they could be taken from you...
anyway to all those who have lost loved one i feel for you and with you
for those that were taken from our lives.............
take care
peace out
Nat(archy)

2006-01-23T13:03:00.000+08:00

hey please do me a favour if you visit and read my blog

POST A COMMENT!!!! GIVE ME FEEDBACK!!!!

thanks

peace out

Nat(archy)

2006-01-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

Okay here comes some more hippie stuff ppl
IF you look over there -=> somewhere there should be a link
to the wilderness society
well i worked for TWS( the wilderness society)
for a yar and a half all up and i tell you what,
talk about life changing i never loved mother earth
more than i do now and since my tenure at TWS.
Before i worked for them i was doing like labouring
jobs and selling people rip off deals with big
Phone companies and i hated it... absolutley hated it.
then worked for tws on 3 seperate occasions, talking to
strangers about nature and the destruction of it so as
to raise awareness.
I had so much fun workin the streets of perth, (sellin my body), hahah
not really, just pickin people out of the 1000 pass every 30 mins and chattin
to them bout savin the environment.
no shit like 1 out of 20 ppl actually stop and say 'yeah? what you got to say?' pretty much anyway. the rest of them just keep walkin like
' Ohh i dont need nature ill live forever without it!!!'
and im all like "AY FUCKHEAD YOU THINK YOU DONT NEED TO HELP??"
well no not quite. if i had done that i would have gotten fired.
very strick about how you approach the public.
all in all i now have my Certificate 1 +2 in conservation and land management
and am currently waitin for my Cert 3 to start.
and i owe it all to a few good friends of mine from
The Wilderness society namely... Matt, Keith, Andy and my very very good friend Leah.
were it not for these people i wouldnt be where i aw today,
i mean im 20 years old and i KNOW i mean KNOW what i wanna
do for the rest of my life and were it not for these inspiring
people above i would still be workin jobs i didnt like
instead of 'paving my path to the future'.....Hey i like that.
i dont think i made it up though.... maybe i heard it somewhere else.
and guys if you read this dont take anything here the wrong way
all in all i a praising The Wilderness Society for all of their great
and wonderful work in Australia and in the Australian Community.
If you read this and you think " hey ive seen those Wilderness society
people around before ", next time you do see them stop and talk to
them because they are people too and they are tryin to save nature for all of us. they would love it if you did and they wont pester you to to donate,
well they will lead that direction but hey....ITS THEIR JOB!!!..
so anyway enough praise to TWS from me. ill leave it here
Peace Out
Nat(archy)

2006-01-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

well this is just a quick thank you to my good friend G who, if it werent for her annoying efforts, forced me into eventually starting my own blog.
now i was goin to do this whole post bout unwritten law but for some reason i cant get onto there site so meh!
anyway l8r!
Nat(archy)

2006-01-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

well this is my second try at this because when i tried to save my last attempt it 'couldnt find HTTP server' bloody shit, gotta write it all overagain! so here goes.....
well ova there -=> is my pic i think.......
it should be.....

wait yep there it is............^ see up there, thats me with no hair! AHhh

heheh but seriously those who dont like to read random ravings should leave...'why you ask??'

well this blog is called BLUEYS BRAIN PUDDLE so you should know that anything contained herein has been poured out of my brain and onto this new fang-dangled writing thingy. but alas it will not end it will never end so without further adu i bring you my mind numbing shavings and ravings of a not so sane mind. UNWRITTEN LAW!!!!

....hey i kinda like that 'shavings and ravings'.......anyway

well its saturday the..wait a sec..21st of January @ 4:28pm

here i sit at this pc thinkin 'what to write, what to write?'

well today i went to serpy falls to get some wikkid nice natural rocks for my mates aquarium...was so nice i loved it. was runnin down the bush tracks

and climbin on the rock faces.

but in all seriousness something as beautiful as that should be protected right?

if you dont agree with my last statement you should stop reading now because im about to launch into a full on rave on how i think some things should be.

UNWRITTEN LAW!!!!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

dont you think that if man had lived in tune with nature, instead of havin this whole ' i a man i rule all living creatures' attitude, that we would have a better world today? what i mean to say is that all these 'Natural disasters' we have been having is, in honest truth, due to no other than mankinds mistakes.Nature must have a way of fixing the wrongs imposed on her and they just happen to be processes that will wipe some humans out.

i dont mean to sound heartless and cynical, i mean i did and do still feel for the people lost in any natural disaster, but there are just way to many of us for nature to handle. especialy with all the toxic waste, nuclear explosions, raping and pillaging of our natural resources, over population...need i continue?

think of it this way we keep killing world, world kill us....

you know that sayin ' its a dog eat dog world' well it applies to even this.

we must care for and be cared for by nature to even begin to have some hope of sustainable live in the future, otherwise mankind will ultimately be the Architect of its own demise.

I mean we have so many environmental groups around the world all tryin to protect nature for the generations to come, yet most of the people on this planet couldnt care less and therein lies the problem; people care to much about themselves and not enough about the world around them.

Now i know some people out there will paint this as that stereotypical hippie bullshit that people have come to expect of people like me, who love and care about mother earth, and i say to thsoe people ' your memory and name will die but the people like myself will live on because unlike you we care and want to care and that is what will make the difference'. so there!!!!

hehehe bit of temper there....

so well in short look after nature and she will look after us.

because we are so insignificant in the history of this world that when our times comes she will not feel sorrow for our dying species, she will welcome our demise with all the force she can muster.

anyway enough of my rambling today

so take care of mother nature if you dont want me on your door screamin at ya...hehehe :)

and i will leave you (my Evergrowing FANBASE!!!)....

with my own words of wisdom

' dont let life get you down, because that will leave nothing for your friends to do' hahaha what ya think? i just made it up

anyway its now 5:32pm time to feed my pets so

PEACE OUT

LOVE ALL
nat(archy)

UNWRITTEN LAW!!!!!!!!!!!!